I have this inherent fear of accidentally letting the biggest and loudest blubber out when my beautiful friend Nat walks down the aisle in just over a month from now.
I love Nat and her Husband to Be’s love story. I love seeing the love they share despite having to meet some of the toughest days any couple should have to face.
And it is because of my love and envy of their love that I am frightened of what might start as a little tear in my eye, (as she first makes her way down to her husband to be) will (as she walks past me) then turn into a full on sobbing blubber. So loud other guests will turn and eyeball me instead of watching my friend take her last steps as a single woman down to that man who looks at her with absolute love and adoration in his eyes..
So to desensitise myself, I asked Nat to send me any of the ceremony music that may cause my undoing. She obliged and as I write I am listening to it .. over and over so that I have all of my shit together on the day.
Here’s to hoping I am even sick of hearing these songs by then and will focus entirely on the ceremony instead of all the emotions I keep tucked away.
And let’s face it, water proof mascara is never tear proof. Not ever. And not only will I sound like a twat, I will look like one before the vows are even finished if I don’t get myself together.
Now, without letting the cat out of the bag on which ones will be played at this wedding either, I am going to share with you all of the desensitising music I am killing in my ears right now. Some of it is Nat’s and some if it is just mine I love to listen to when I am feeling a little ..you know..blue.
Get out your hankies peeps…these are the best tear jerkers you ever will here.
Hold You In My Arms – Ray LaMontagne
Desire – Ryan Adams
I Choose You – Sara Bareilles
Let’s Stay Together – Al Green
Waiting On An Angel – Ben Harper
You – Donavon Frankenreiter
I Don’t Dance – Lee Brice
Sober – Little Big Town
And then .. and then the bride sends me this …
And I really really panicked, because whilst this is an amazing beautiful dress (bodice .. GORGEOUS). All I could see was a vagina in the front region there. And I love this Bride to be so much .. I didn’t want to have to tell her what I thought her dress looked like. And for a second I breathed a sigh of relief that I wouldn’t be blubbering at the ver,emony at all for I would be trying to wipe the smirk off my face instead.
And then she said it wasn’t her dress.
Happy Monday Lovelies.