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Turning Up In Only Your Underwear

30 November, 2014
toyota kluger crash

It has only been the last couple of weeks that I have started to feel ‘all grown up’. At 37 and almost a half I might add.

I have made some huge decisions on my career, taken a huge leap of faith and have been walking around feeling largely responsible.

So yesterday morning when I was making my way in my car, to my work colleague’s house to prepare food for our Christmas party, the last thing I would have thought was that I wasn’t in control of  my life.

But that was utter BS.

Proven to me by another road user failing to give way and slamming into me at high speed. Hurtling me and my car 60 metres down the road..

I don’t remember much. I don’t even think I saw the car that hit me.

I do remember my car spinning out of control and me wondering if it was ever going to stop.

The car did stop eventually. Before or after I was knocked out I don’t know.

Despite buying my 2012 Toyota Kluger brand new and doing so on the basis of its safety check and front and side airbags.. No airbags deployed when I was hit by this car and then in turn spun out of control hitting a sign and landing in a culvert.

I do believe I had some Angels looking after me though.

My friend who I was to meet and prepare for the Christmas party with witnessed the entire accident, is a Dr and stayed with me the entire time.

My children were not in the car. God forbid if they were they would have been badly hurt for sure. Given that lack of airbag thing. (Toyota can you just check you even installed the bastards in my car?)

One of the paramedics was my daughters’ friend’s mum.

One fireman was my work colleagues son.

My beautiful husband held my hand during the entire time they spent cutting me out of the car.

Oh and hell … I was wearing almost matching underwear. Which was handy seeing so many people saw them after my favourite summer dress was cut off me.

Talking about all of this is hard tonight. I am feeling like a wreck and in pain. The knowledge now that I don’t have the control of my life I once thought shakes me to the core.

Being strapped up like a cocoon because it is feared you have a fractured pelvis and put in a helicopter only metres from where your car lays possible does that to you.

Makes you all shaky.

Fucked up even.

I wonder if I will ever muster up the courage to drive again. You know drive with the knowledge that you could be written off the road by another driver at 10:30am in the morning.

But I am a stubborn shit and rarely have I let adversity stop me. So I will get over it.

And if I have learnt anything from this lack of control bullshit it is ….

to always wear your best undies and damn it if you end up wearing only them, smile as much as you can.

Cause you’re alive.

Thank you to everyone who have sent messages. I will get back to you all eventually.

 

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  • Cate30 November, 2014 at 9:38 pm

    I had a car accident 7 years ago, and for months after I couldn’t make a right hand turn out of our street (the spot where I had my accident) but the only damage was my pride, and the totalled car. Grateful you’re ok.
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  • Sammie @ The Annoyed Thyroid30 November, 2014 at 9:51 pm

    I was in a RTA a few years ago. The paramedic told me I was lucky to be alive, but at least I had matching underwear. I can relate to so much of this post, but I’m so happy you’re ok, because your dress, your car, heck, even the airbags can be replaced, but you can’t. Big (but gentle) hugs for you lovely xx

    • Gayel Stewart-Airs27 December, 2014 at 7:39 am

      I am so grateful to be here with my family for Christmas. Things could have been so different. Finally getting to these comments because 3.5 weeks later I am only just feeling strong enough to read them. Crazy times. Hope you had a lovely Chrissy x
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  • Louisa30 November, 2014 at 10:19 pm

    Gosh love, what an ordeal. Please be kind to yourself. Thinking of you <3

  • Emily @ Have A Laugh On Me30 November, 2014 at 11:01 pm

    Oh sweetheart that so could have easily have been me. The best news is that you’re okay and that is ALL that matters. BUT airbags should have gone off, we have the same car! I bet you have had a big scare. Hugs to you and I hope you’re feeling okay right now xx
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  • Kirsten1 December, 2014 at 7:07 am

    What an ordeal, but ver happy to hear your safe and well. Hope the emotional scares heals as quickly as the physical, very glad to hear there isn’t anything too serious. I will from now on wear my best undies, just in case! And sorry to hear about your favourite summer dress, that’s gotta hurt!! Hope Toyota have a pretty damn good explanation as to why their cars aren’t doing their job! Best of luck for your recovery x

  • Kelly NH2 December, 2014 at 11:33 am

    Glad to hear you ok (apart from the pelvis thing!). Thank God your children weren’t in the car also. Small blessings.
    Toyota should be on the receiving end of some pretty lawyer-ish stuff once you are on the mend.
    Thinking of you and hoping you treat yourself gently.

  • Jo17 December, 2014 at 9:07 pm

    Having only just joined your blog after reading of this accident on another blog I thought I should leave my well wishes and congratulations on your strenght enabling yourself to move forward. However, I recommend having counciling to assist dealing with poat traumatic stress. It can hit you at any time and come on years later.

  • Gayel Stewart-Airs27 December, 2014 at 7:53 am

    I think I have just gotten to the same realisation almost 4 weeks later Jo. I am back driving but it is a huge battle every single time. Hope you had a lovely Christmas 🙂
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