I don’t get a lot of alone time these days. My life is really busy and while I think I thrive best on some good ole solitude, I have grown comfortable always having at least one of my favourite people around me.
They are like my security blankie. Ready to catch me if I stumble. Distracting me, keeping my brain running as fast as I like, making me feel complete.
A few years ago, I experienced what Mum’s probably feel when their kids fly the nest. I think this is common these days with all the shared parenting going on after a marriage breaks down. Doesn’t make it any easier though.
On those weekends when my little ones were off enjoying time with their Dad, I was left alone in our home. The first 24 hours were great. My house would sparkle from all the cleaning and decluttering. The next 24 hours I would hassle my bestie. Then the next 48 hours were spent between work and my couch, staring into space. Feeling redundant.
I felt like half a parent and I was lonely.
Anyway, to cut a long story short, enter Mr MMM and 1 1/2 years later Lil D. Well those two filled that void 500 %. I still remember having to pee one day while keeping Lil D asleep in the ergo carrier. As much as I longed for some alone time, I wouldn’t take it whenever it was offered.
Sometimes you have to be careful what you wish for. I wished to be never so alone. Well hello thank you universe.. You took that a little too literal, but hey maybe I needed it.
Next week I have been so lucky to be given to opportunity to fly to Sydney for the day for a launch of something really spesh. Something I am sure you are all going to love. Something I am going to absolutely love sharing with you.
But fuck … I have to fly to Sydney for a day on my own so I can experience this awesome event. Me. Just me.
Do you realise how big that is to me? Do you realise how small my town is and that 100,000 towns my size would fit in Sydney? Fuck.
I have to get a cab. A cab … We have three of those in our town. They are always parked outside the pub, cause you only use them if you are a little pissy.
Anyway, inspire me. What do you do alone?
(It’s ok if you say pee, that is a secret dream of mine …)